As an individual who has faced many challenges through out life trust can be hard to muster at times. Fear, indecision, and worry quickly flood the mind when asked to trust. I have learned that in order to trust one must have faith and surrender. That is a lot to ask for at times!
I recently did one of those trust exercises where you fall and the other person catches you. Easy, totally not complicated, right? Not so much! You would not believe how afraid I was in that moment! So, I prayed and quick as lightning I got a response. “Do you trust them?” I took a deep breath and I had my answer. Yes, yes I do. So, I took another deep breath, closed my eyes, let go, and fell. Only a brief exercise and yet the mental challenge I faced in those few seconds was insurmountable and yet when I asked in my heart if I would trust the answer was a resounding, “yes.”
When publishing this blog every article has been like a trust exercise. I feel so vulnerable and exposed when sharing my heart for the world to see. I fear that perhaps my message will not be seen or worse yet for it to be misunderstood. Doubt will cloud my mind, “What if I don’t reach my target audience? What if I DO and it is not well received?!” It’s enough to make one pause before hitting the “publish” button that’s for certain!
These thoughts ran trough my head heavily yesterday. I was pretty distraught, afraid that I might be “too much”. I have heard that phrase a lot through out my life. But I am reminded that I was made to be bold, brave, and vibrant. I will not be ashamed of how bright the light within me shines. I will burn bright as a phoenix rising.
And so I release these self defeating thoughts as I surrender and have faith that I am being divinely guided and protected. I am in the process of overcoming my fears, burning with renewed faith and conviction that I am on the right path. I release the need to know the outcome before I act. I trust the process.