As a child I had pretty idealistic ideas, I suppose I still have idyllic daydreaming tendencies. Recently I have been remembering a lot of my original goals and daydreams because I am currently building upon those dreams.
When I was in the 4th grade I wrote a story about a little girl who had her own farm and was self sufficient, to the extent of even growing her own wheat and making flour. I remember this part of the story quite clearly because the teacher had crossed out in red ink the word flour and wrote in red ink f-l-o-w-e-r. When I read over the corrections I said it was the wrong word and if she read the context of the story she would know. Her response what along the lines of what 9 year old knows about flour?! My response was, “Me. I bake cookies ALL the time, with F-L-O-U-R.” I’m sure most 9 year old’s don’t think this way but then again I am not most people.
Now in present day I am working towards the goal of having my own farm and being more self sufficient. My gardening skills still need a lot of leveling up but I am mastering the grinding my own flour, that was some pretty good foreshadowing on my part! I just need the dappled grey Clydesdale horse, but I would definitely be okay with a draft mule instead.
Other idealistic tendencies included saving the rainforest. Thank you Fern Gully! I even proposed a “Save the Rainforest” dance to the principle of my elementary school with the idea that payment could be done as a canned food drive or bring in your own recyclables. I used to be really into crushing cans for recycling, I even got a can crusher mounted in the porch as a Christmas present and I was EXTATIC. Again, odd child but when have I not been? I suppose this dance proposal lends to my days as a wedding planner!
However saving the rain forest had nothing on my dreams of curing cancer! Yes, I also dreamed of this as a child. I give credit to the movie, Medicine Man staring Sean Connery and Lorraine Bracco. I still long to explore the Amazon rainforest but Missouri has enough bugs for me so I don’t think I have to visit a place with even MORE bugs! Although given the opportunity I would jump on it in a heartbeat I am sure.
Another dream I had since childhood was to become a healer. Someone who could bring people back from the brink of death or ease their chronic ailments that no one else could solve. Another media influence, enter in Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman. I absolutely loved this show! Not only was I influenced by this show but I was constantly drawn to stories of indigenous healers and shamans finding similarities in their healers journey to my own life.
Recently I enrolled in the master herbalist program at the School of Natural healing. I take time daily towards the goal of one day becoming the healer that I have long dreamed of being. I get frustrated because I can not assimilate all the information instantly but then this isn’t the Matrix, or at least I haven’t unlocked that level. Who knows, maybe I will still have the opportunity to save the world!